Intention vs Impact. I recognize that it might not be my intention and it might be fully outside my control, but I was being an ass. Being called out when I do it is good and important, because it helps me figure out next steps - how do I recover from what I missed, how do I make them feel heard, do I have the type of relationship with this person to share my ND?

Part of accepting myself as ND is being able to be called an asshole, accept I was being an asshole, but understanding that it doesn’t make me a bad person and I shouldn’t feel bad about it since it was outside my control but use it as a chance to figure out the best next steps.

I have a slightly different version of this. I get sneezing fits when too full. It’s genetic and happens to most people on one side of my family. Thanksgiving is always fun.

Seriously. I’ve never had a game pump adrenaline for me like Tarkov. Combined with the fact that over hundreds of hours of play in a wipe, I still feel like I’m making long term progress in every raid is just addicting. The core gameplay loop is just fun.

Give me a good dev who respect their players who can give me these things and there goes years of my gaming time.

He mentions looking into contractors which is basically exactly this. Going through a 3rd party can make that process easier for short term needs, which is what he is saying the current situation might be.

For any fans of Brandon Sanderson, this just makes me think of Yumi and the Nightmare Painter