I think the part that makes me feel so disconnected from society is even if there was a huge awakening of awareness about the hollowness we feel, it already has persisted most of my life as a millenial and that distance, dissonance, unreality, and disposition doesn’t go away easily even if the underlying problem that caused it one day does.

Time lost is time lost, life lost is life lost and the manifestation of that extraction through the mechanisms of modern life is a loss of detail, a loss of vibrance, a loss of dreams…

The saddest part for me is I don’t think I will ever have the realistic option to have kids, by the time I stabilize my life and get the necessary foundations I will most certainly be too old to have kids. I don’t know if I want kids, I don’t think I do, but I don’t even feel like I even had the choice, even if I had made all the best choices possible with the options I had.

Surely the reason we are all depressed is just social media and digital screens though!