Hello fellow graybeard! I, too, started back in the 90s. Internet felt like a video game, always something new, hacker culture, bleeding in from phone phreaking and with Linux hitting the market we had the FreeBSD vs GNU/Linux debates, TLDP.org and forums and BBs and so much more.

Fun times.

UNIX systems in the 1960s. They are still in use to this day and modified ones run our phones, Steam Decks and space craft!

OP stated his diagnosis. I’m sure his statement about loss of control due to neurological issues isn’t a Web MD search, my friend.