You’re not alone brother, Einstein himself had beef with quantum mechanics (as did most of the guys who developed the whole field, AFAIK).
His famous quote “god doesn’t play dice” isnt about destiny or religion or something. It’s specifically about this, about how the universe is mostly deterministic (the tree DOES make a sound, the cat IS alive OR dead) except in quantum physics where things supposedly are random and based on probability? Hogwash.
Proving that it is hogwash, however, is a Nobel prize and a ticket to immortality…
May I suggest reading Carl Sagan’s Cosmos? Or watch one of the TV shows.
While your average human is about as smart as a brick, there are so many minds throughout history that were able to pull humanity out of our dark caves and into space.
What we need, to survive as a species, is to nurture people, give them (proper) education, and more will come up.